Boys n men

Hi Hmm I was thinking if the person on the bus who'd give up their seat for me. Excuse me but I was thinking maybe they thought I was pregnant or something. I'm a little plump but doubt I look that huge that it looks like I'm pregnant!. Maybe you think it's odd but no one has given up their seat for me before. I bet loads and loads of girls who are pretty get seats offered to them all the time, but I'm not one of those people. For me it's to the stage if someone called me pretty, I'd think they where lying. I don't really trust men or got to know one, I mean that I have but , I don't know what I'm saying. Anyway i remember back when I was at school something freaky that happened. I was in year 11 and i saw this cute boy. Year 11 is the last year of secondary school so aged 15. And this boy was in year 9!. And inthought that's bad anyway this would make him about 13!. Looking back now I can't believe how young 13 and 15 are. So I saw this boy and from what I remember he was into manic street preachers which back then was like slipknot or something these days. And he had long hair to his shoulders, same as my bus boy did. And i'd liked him for a few months and in assembly the teacher said that all the names in this hat. I don't remember what people had to do,I think it was just people from this boys class. And they'd win cinema tickets for two people. So I thought with all my might that I hope he wins and then he can ask me on a date. I can't even remember if this boy even talked tonme before. Anyway I was there wishing with all my might that he'd win. And the teacher reaches into the hat.......and pulled out this boys name!. I was shocked to say the least. So he got the tickets and i was waiting for him to ask me, but he never did. I still find it odd i wished him to win and he did. Anyway. So bus boy had long hair like boy. If I'd have taken the seat I'd have thought he'd be after somethign. Ahh yes never be nice to me I get emotions confused. Never have I kissed a man with me been the first to make the move because I suck at working men out. They never make it simple or maybe it's me Reading everything wrong. So now I've been single for as long as I can remember and I'm not bothered,I guess that's why I'm moaning about it then,lol. My only first kiss was a boy, again at school he had blue eyes and real blonde hair with a fringe. Kinda like that cute guy from ex boyband A1. We where alone on a school trip out and it was snowing heavily and we where sheltering behind the school bus alone as the rest played in the snow. And that to me was romantic, don't you think?. Little red cheeks and stuff. But anyway he smoked and was smoking and yuck is all I'll say, but I did want to kiss him. You know the moment when your lips go all wired and tingley and feel like they are enlarging???. Well u got that feeling and I was daring myself too,but I thought off all the piss people would take out of him if they found out I'd kissed him, so I didn't. I heard he got stabbed to death a few years ago. Happy stories hey :-s Okey I better go, been here for 20 minutes :) Cya x